When you dream of her strong shoulders every night for a week.
When you say for years that she will end up with a soldier she can cheat on when he's away.
When you check her facebook that says she is "enjoying her boyfriend being home before his deployment."
When you finish ten minutes worth of maniacal cackling, your throat sawed sore, bitter.
When you see someone, skinny, not unlike yourself, sliding into her prefabricated house, the chintz print curtains either ironic or not ironic.
When you unironically fuck her.
When you skip side saddle out the screen door (this is the way the ladies ride) as she smokes in the sheets.